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my life in an evening

wake up hour later than planned, shower, now 2 behind

try to get on task but get distracted by things i need to do but aren't on today list

go to party later than planned
want to flee but go b/c i promised tea
displeased with appearance, dress not fancy enough, hair not done, makeup not done (can not do on own), no mani, no pedi, no waxing and i suck at shaving, no accessories etc :(
no one can have the tea because they didn't bring over mugs
i should have left then and saved the time
stayed, ate a few things, drank a wine, won a haircut at the raffle

then i went home and skipped the after party which everyone whined at me for
but i have tea to blend and work to do tomorrow

i have no close relationship with everyone b/c i don't hang after work b/c i am busy with tea

so i lack a SO local, and i lack friends, and i lack relationships with coworkers

i could fix the problem by dropping tea

but i like tea, i would like tea to be my job
but i need health insurance, and money

so i know i did this to myself. but i am still unhappy.