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blue apron

Eggplant Rollatini with Lemony Ricotta & Garlic Bread

http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/eggplant-rollatini-with-lemony-ricotta-garlic-bread

Tofu Ravioli with Glazed Baby Bok Choy Leaves
http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/tofu-ravioli-with-glazed-baby-bok-choy-leaves

Aromatic Basmati Rice Pilaf with Baby Pattypan Squash
http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/aromatic-basmati-rice-pilaf-with-baby-pattypan-squash


Cod with Parmesan-Crusted Squash & Roasted Red Potatoes
http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/cod-with-parmesan-crusted-squash-roasted-red-potatoes

Steak with Salsa Rossa and Broccoli Rabe
http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/steak-with-salsa-rossa-and-broccoli-rabe

Chicken Banh Mi with Sesame Cabbage Salad
http://www.blueapron.com/recipes/chicken-banh-mi-with-sesame-cabbage-salad

Angry ramblings

So

I made a post like this years back and I conveyed it poorly so everyone blamed me for my frustration

let's try again

friends are having babies
friends are getting married
people are buying houses
friends are having their own companies, jobs they love
friends are improving their lives
friends are getting their acts together and having savings and not living check to check

i am sad
i am lonely
i am envious

not because i want children
in fact i think i've decided i don't want to even adopt

but because they know what they want

but because they are settling in somewhere

but because they are not alone

everyone says i am too picky and should settle for dating
but i know i can't do monogamy
i know i need kink
i know they need to read and geek out
i know i hate smoking
etc

so is it better to be in a bad relationship, or lonely
I think lonely
I'd like to not be lonely

I keep trying to improve myself
to learn to cook
to try and get my finances in control
to try my hand at a business that makes me passionately happy (the field not the work per say)

but there is never enough money, thank diety for my parents
there is never enough time

whine whine whine

just, sad, lonely, frustrated

i need to exercise, save money, stop buying stupid shit, become a better business woman

my cuddle girlfriend loves far away so i can't even just get cuddles


arrrgh

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last post was ranty whiny

on the upside

my current job is not hard, and is interesting, and is 10-6, no on call
technical product manager
i have to gather info and make stories for dev's...sometimes a bit stressful when it's over my head technical, but still cool to be working "on the cloud"

my boss is not a micromanager, and is nice, and is flexible! <3

my coworkers are smart and nice

i own a tea company, i blend tea, i get to go to tea events and write them off year end

i made a few friends (not close, but friends) in the area

so not everything sucks