NYE Explorations Opening
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amazonvWhere are you in your Body?
When I think of my body, what comes to mind?
Pain
uncomfortable
itchy
need to lose 5 lbs
exhausted
broken
defective
I ignore the ability to enjoy and have fun
I drag my body along and force it to do what i want and need. I don't understand why it's broken, or why it feels certain ways. I try to get it fixed but there is never a quick fix, and it rarely helps, and i don't do the upkeep.
How are you perceiving your feeling self?
When I think of my body, what comes to mind?
What of my body do I tend to ignore?
How would I describe my relationship with my body right now?
Pain
uncomfortable
itchy
need to lose 5 lbs
exhausted
broken
defective
I ignore the ability to enjoy and have fun
I drag my body along and force it to do what i want and need. I don't understand why it's broken, or why it feels certain ways. I try to get it fixed but there is never a quick fix, and it rarely helps, and i don't do the upkeep.
How are you perceiving your feeling self?
Are you distant from it? Overwhelmed by it?
overwhelmed, burnt out, disappointed
numb, empty, void, disconnected, not present, angry, annoyed, impatient
overwhelmed, burnt out, disappointed
numb, empty, void, disconnected, not present, angry, annoyed, impatient
What is your relationship like with your heart/feelings?
What is your current perception of your expanded self, the parts of you that are connected to something larger than yourself
How has your expanded self been affected by this year?
What is your relationship like right now with your expanded self?
i try to be a member of the community and helpful and have friends
i can't
some people recognize me, sometimes
some people seem to care
but how many do?
do i really have any close friends anymore?
am i really helping?
am i doing enough?
is it worth it when so many just take? or when so many others give so much and i can never be as useful as they are.
even if i am helping is it burning me out? do i know how to participate without burning out? do i know how to make boundaries for myself? for others?
is infosec really my people? or do i just want it to be? do i belong? where do i belong?
I feel like i am so bad at maintaining connections, i'm a terrible friend
The relationship you want to have in 6 weeks with yourself as a result of the course
More cooperative with my body, work with it
better in touch with my body and what it wants and needs
maybe figure out if i do have emotions
perhaps a realistic schedule to balance work, life, and commitments?
Find a way to coerce myself to be healthier and perhaps happier?
Reading:
i try to be a member of the community and helpful and have friends
i can't
some people recognize me, sometimes
some people seem to care
but how many do?
do i really have any close friends anymore?
am i really helping?
am i doing enough?
is it worth it when so many just take? or when so many others give so much and i can never be as useful as they are.
even if i am helping is it burning me out? do i know how to participate without burning out? do i know how to make boundaries for myself? for others?
is infosec really my people? or do i just want it to be? do i belong? where do i belong?
I feel like i am so bad at maintaining connections, i'm a terrible friend
The relationship you want to have in 6 weeks with yourself as a result of the course
More cooperative with my body, work with it
better in touch with my body and what it wants and needs
maybe figure out if i do have emotions
perhaps a realistic schedule to balance work, life, and commitments?
Find a way to coerce myself to be healthier and perhaps happier?
Reading:
life is NOT a journey
https://youtu.be/rBpaUICxEhk
